3.5.12

Kill the babysitter

A friend of mine sent me this notecard after receiving the one I sent to explain I plan to shorten the time I spend in SL, his SL name is Xavieriss Capalini, a sympathetic, smart and very nice man, and as you can read here, a talented writer :)


Wow...getting truths you don't want to get is maybe the more difficult thing that we can live in our lives.
For hey, what is the most ugly thing we can see in a mirror ? Ourselves.

"I wish I would have that eyes, that body, that brain...but I am just that thing in the mirror".

This is at what you spend your life on...Measuring. Striving for more. Getting better. Handle the efforts to have a better life, a better job, a better look, a better lover, a better feel.

And you get into SL.

Wow again I can have everything I want here ! Sooo nice ! So much shiny ! Look how I am pretty ! Look at my huge house, and my beautiful friends. And  I can fuck anyone, anytime, anyway, in public, to my house, run after them to hunt them and rape them, and all seems to be normal and permitted !

HEAVEN ! I FOUND HEAVEN ! I don't have to fight anymore ! I don't have to work on it anymore ! A credit card number, some time for spending it all, and I can be the most fabulous creature that SL holds !
HEAVEN ! I FOUND HEAVEN ! Now I'll let my brain rest, speak, enjoy ! I'll get endless pleasures, I am going to make them all, at my feet, servicing me, servicing them, I don't care, I'll try them all !
HEAVEN! I FOUND HEA......*The screen is turning black*

Silence. Missing the sound of the cooling fans of the tower. Silence. A chair. A body. A smile. Sad smile. A sigh. Wet panties. Lot of images in the head. Thinking of them already. "Oh blackbull74 is such a kinky man.  I wish I could have one like that in my bed RL. I wish that could be real....I wish...I..."

Back to earth.  Oh not. Not now.  I want some again. My body is burning, and I feel it again. I can't. I need some more...
Voooooom....fans are back on again....Oh great, I get the login screen again, I can't wait....I hardly can stay still on my chair..."Pre-caching" !!! Yes yes I am getting in !
HEAVEN ! I AM BACK IN HEAVEN ! Now let me see who is on....Oh that one yes, I am going to be fucked by that one, I love when she kick the shit out of me ! Grrrr I am so kinky, I love it...let me see what dress I can put on...

Oh my poor little girl, I love it when I see you like that. You are so happy in your dream.  This dream is wonderful isn't it ? So true. So right. So.....everything...Why do we have still to eat and work ? This is so unfair. Download me in scotty, please.
You can't be downloaded baby. If it would require from me to open large scars on my RL skin, to get you downloaded in, I would do it for you. Just to see you in heaven. Again. And again. For ever. Immortality. Resting only on downtimes. In a box. In the dark. Relieved.

The screen is black again. And heart and fingers are hurting. You'll have to cope again. Partner, worried one, who is not with you in your paradise. That made some gap between you two since you play your life here. She seems so far away....Why doesn't she want to follow you in heaven ? Why ? For she is rather more in Hell. She waits for you. Hours. Days. To cross Hell with you. She needs you baby. She can feel so alone.

Oh right, no, you are not that evil. You do log off to hug her, most of the time. A lot of hours. She gets the most of it.
Wrong baby. You wait to come back on. You do wait for it. You are just being patient. You do give her smiles, loves, cares, fucks. All that she should require....But....
SL is stealing some of your smiles from her. The best and the largest that she could have seen on your face, baby. When you are so happy, she knows that you get a good time....with somebody else. You are such a cheater for her. But she loves you so much. She handles it. She would handle Hell for you. And she is. She is not allowed in your Paradise. You kicked her out.

There must be something to do....You don't want to lose her, do you ? Oh sure, you'll get more time for your paradise....but someday....then fan of the tower will not make you the same effect.
You are addicted baby. You are a fucking junkie....
But you don't want to go on cure....But....Oh ! Yes I met one ! That guy.
That jerk that wanted me to be less here, to Discipline and stuffs, "Get less to get more" and all his bullshit...I am here to play pal, to have fun, to live in paradise, not follow you godamn never ending lessons of what I may fuck or not ! Shit who is that guy, what does he want ? ....What...a....oh....well...shit.....

Ok...fewer orgasms and better ones...that should be interesting anyway. And I am late for shopping anyway...well...and he says I could then get better ones RL too ? Bullshi....Oh...might be...look at my panties...fuck.....He is...evilly good.
Alright, I have to log off anyway...He'll wait. And I still have to meet Mistress Kinky tonight. I love her. She is sooo...."Honey ? Are you ok ? Hang on, I am coming....I love you honey...yes...yes....I'll be there soon, ok ? Yes I know, not too late...I know you want a hug , I know...just some stuffs to send to friends and I am here, ok ? Good. See you later love"

Stop it. Now. Kill the babysitter. I'll help you to have a good  fuck with her just before.